Life. Is. Good.
One of the things that I frequently hear myself say is something one of my friends said to me when I first started to learn about affirmations and manifesting the life of your dreams. (Major woowoo alert!) She said it's good to stipulate that you want what you want, "Under grace in the most perfect way."
For example, say you desperately want a fancy new car. Fair enough. You could probably go right out and get some crazy financing to make it happen. Boom! New car! See how easy it is to manifest the life of your dreams?!
But wait. There's more.
What happens the first time the bill shows up in the mail and it's more than you can comfortably afford? Is that the feeling you were hoping for when you set your sights on the car? Probably not. You were likely going for freedom (zooming around with the wind in your hair), power (flying up a hill) and comfort (leather seats and and a booming stereo system). Right?
None of that is what you get when you have to pay for something you can't afford. That makes you feel stressed, anxious, and powerless. In essence, it makes your life worse, not better. Who wants that? So it turns out you didn't want a fancy new car right this second no matter the consequences. You wanted it under grace in the most perfect way.
This is probably the best thing I've learned when it comes to all the spiritual "Secret" stuff in my life (I know that was a cheesy book and movie but it was like the gateway to a whole new way of thinking and living for us). It blows me away when I notice how easily things can happen once you set an intention and let it go.
Remember how a long time ago I said I wanted to be a teacher? Well, guess what? I am one now! At a two day a week Montessori tutorial for homeschoolers. It's AWESOME (more about it later, I hope!) and it works perfectly with my life. I didn't have to find childcare (the boys are both in my class), I didn't have to go back to school (although, now I want to!), I don't have to put up with all the school nonsense I've worked so hard to get away from (because it's small and private and Montessori and incredible), and I don't have to stress about not knowing what I'm doing because I'm the assistant teacher and get to learn as I go. It's basically the PERFECT teaching job for me. I didn't even have to go looking for it. It just happened. Easily. Effortlessly. Under grace in the most perfect way...
This morning, I was journaling a bit, trying to answer some writing prompts in a Montessori book I'm reading. I was reflecting on how I've always known I wanted to teach but shied away from it for so many different reasons, reasons that don't even apply to my current position. My journal was kinda floppy (I was in bed) so I reached over to grab a book from beneath my bedside table. I felt around until I found a hard covered book and picked it up.
As soon as I saw what book it was, I started to laugh. It was the library book that had been missing for a month! Just the day before we had finally finished going through every last nook and cranny in the house and I was resigned to the fact that it was, indeed, lost. While we searched, we donated things we no longer needed, organized our space and got more intentional about what's on our shelves and in our baskets.
Had I known the book was sitting on my shelf the whole time, we never would have been motivated to go through all of our stuff. Which felt good even if it didn't help us find the book. So, even though the timing might seem terrible (who wants to return a library book a month overdo?), it's actually kinda perfect.
Our house is more organized.
There were other copies of the book at the library so we didn't keep anyone waiting.
The librarian we talked to gave us a grace period in case the book was lost at the library (it happens) so we didn't rack up any fines.
And best of all - I got to effortlessly find something without even looking for it. Best feeling ever!
Thanks, Universe. You're a real pal.
(PS, I wrote this a while ago and totally forgot to publish it - oops! Better late than never I guess...)